Even Now, God is Good

Kelsey

A friend who knows I struggle greatly with the desire to get pregnant recently sent me this. It was exactly what I needed to read, and I️ kept the message so that I️ could reference whenever I️ needed. I️ truly hope it encourages and comforts someone:

Satan was able to tempt Adam and <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> into sin by drawing their focus to the one thing “missing” from their life. He convinced them that God was ruining their life by withholding the one thing that would actually make them happy: “For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil” (Genesis 3:5).

Look at your life. Is it possible that you’ve fallen for Satan’s oldest strategy against us? Are you fixated on the one thing God is withholding? Has the Serpent convinced you that God is actually wrong to keep something good from you? Is it possible that your life is really a garden full of fruitful trees, but you’re stuck on the one tree God won’t let you have now?

When God rested and surveyed the universe and the garden he had created for mankind, “God saw everything that he had made, and behold, it was very good” (Genesis 1:31). Somehow, an Eden where God withheld the tree of the knowledge of good and evil from Adam and <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> was very good. Not just something to cope with. Not just something to live with. Very good.

When God withholds something our heart desperately desires, it is very good. Our minds tend to fixate on the one thing that God won’t give us.

When he refuses to give us that good thing we plead for, he is actually giving us something even greater: himself and his grace to us in Christ.

I️ have fallen victim to the trap of wanting to know why things are the way they are and thinking my life is not fair. Like many of you of whom I️ have read posts of on here, I️ am SURROUNDED by people getting pregnant left and right. My first instinct is bitterness, overwhelming sadness, and “that isn’t fair,” and sometimes even anger. When I️ am looking at things only from an earthly perspective, I️ am overwhelmed and can’t cope with my sadness and jealousy. It is too much. My greatest comfort comes from realigning my perspective with Christ’s. I️ was recently diagnosed with PCOS. I️ don’t know why, but I️ know God is good, He is wise, He has complete control of my body, and for His sovereign, wise reasons, it is good for me to have PCOS. God is the author of life. He is in complete control of the incredible power of breathing life into a womb. He is good, He is all-powerful, and for His perfect reasons, He finds it good to do so in the lives of some around me and has chosen not to bring that about in my life at this point. I’m overwhelming blessed and “in a garden full of fruitful trees,” and am so often fixated on the one tree God is currently withholding from me.

I️ am praying that God leads all of you ladies in the same boat I️ am in truly to the point of trusting God without borders and finding during this time, that only He can truly fill the voids we have in our lives anyway.

I️ pray this challenges myself and all of you to live a life of thankfulness for the blessings we already have; that I️ would be thankful for all of the alone time I️ get with my husband during this time, thankful for all of the spontaneous traveling we get to do, thankful we can lay on the couch all weekend without a care in the world, and sleep in as late as we want to. And that if/when God does choose to breathe and create life and bless us with a child, I️ can thank Him knowing that He has done so because it is what He saw as being “very good” in our lives.

“As for God, His way is perfect; The word of the LORD is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭18:30‬ ‭NKJV‬‬