do u think its selfish for me to want to be home and lives 2 h away by flight from my husband?

Dear All,

Currently im 13 weeks and lives abroad (2h flight) because husband is working here. Ive been living here for 2 years but the first year, i go back and forth to my country because i continue my master, at that time that wasnt feel bad. Although i do sleep most of the time im here or reading.

The second year here, i have nothing to do. I feel so depressed. I met a lot of friends especially the husband works here. And most of the wife said they first few years here, they are also deprrssed. So it makes me feel better. When im here, im always at home (cooking, do the laundry, cleaning, watch netflix all day etc). I dont feel healthy at all. Not that i dont want to go out, this place is so very pack with cars, motorcycle (they dont have train ... yet.not many) so sometimes 5 km took me 2h. So most of the wife i asked them what they did. Usually they just send kids to school or just go down for shopping. And once a week badminton. Thats all. They do live nearby, 15mins away but sometimes feel forever. A few ppl live the same building, we only catch up once a month.

I feel like i better go to my home country whre i can drive, get good food ( they have good food but u know sometimes the ingredients and flavours are different. Im so craving a lot of things), families and friends to support since its my first pregnancy. But if i think about my husband. Better to stay with him. If i think about my pregnancy, i feel like its hewlthier to be home. My husband works a lot frlm 630am to 7pm. By 11pm he is alrwdy asleep. So i have only 4h with him evrryday.

Im not complaining. Okay maybe a bit. But i feel like this time i should think of my baby? I really dont know. Another 6 months to go. Long distance with husbsnd. It wont be that bad i guess.