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I was so confused and sad that they was communicating in such a friendly manner as he had just expressed to me that the meeting was a total and otter mess. I know what you’re thinking the fact that I wasn’t ready to read the messages already showed that we had trust issues and I was just refusing to accept them. I still managed not to read all of the messages but then he got a message from his cousin asking him what had happened in the meeting and the story he told me was completely different to the one he told his cousin he told his cousin that he was being forced to marry this girl as they were now going to have a family together. I was so confused I didn’t know what to do, at this point I knew that I couldn’t keep quiet so I asked him and he went crazy he was going absolutely mad saying why would I be getting married to a girl that he has no feelings for he was telling me that he loves me and only me he was sweet talking me like you always did. But I kept asking but why would you lie why would you lie but I got no response. But me being me I fell for it again. BUT THEN, The girl that was pregnant gave me a missed call and I was just thinking what the hell is this. I didn’t want to overreact because I knew I would probably say something to her that I would regret saying, all that was going through my mind was that this is the girl that was causing my boyfriend sleepless night‘s and stress. So I called him and asked him why was this girl calling me. He began to act very cagey once again and this time I couldn’t keep it to myself and the girl kept on ringing me so I just thought what harm would it do to listen to what she had got to say. I knew that I had to control myself under the circumstances and not to go and jump the gun and start saying things to her that I didn’t even know was true as he was already lying to me. So I answered the girls phone calls and the conversation we had lasted 16 minutes, it broke my heart she told me what really happened at that meeting. So here it goes, at the meeting he was the one that suggested to both his family and her family that these two should unite and get married and I said to her but that’s impossible because how could he said that in front of the other potential baby daddy and his family and she was like what other potential baby daddy he is the only father to my child. I was devastated, then I asked her what made her contact me today and she told me that one of her friends saw him in one of my Snapchat and told her so she asked him why we was together as she knew that we had dated in the past and he said oh it’s not like that you know I only want you and no one else he was giving her false hope and telling her that they was going to be a family and that the Snapchats she saw “were not what it looks like”. So after me and this girl spoke he called me and I told him that me and the girls spoke and me and him could no longer be together and he denied everything that she said to me but I knew for a fact it was the truth. So here I am, he has been messaging me telling me how much he still loves me and wants us to be together and how he cannot live a life without me. I have been trying my best not to be hostile towards him because all the other times that we broke up in the past I was hostile towards him and it only hurt me I figured I was the only one that was hurting and he was still moving on with his life like me and him never existed so I wanted this time to be different I wanted to make it easier for me to move on and I thought that on the way for me to do this would be to be civil with him. But I’m finding it really difficult to keep ignoring him and blocking him is definitely out of the question so I just wanted some advice on how I can get over this guy. I love him so much but he is going to be the father of another woman’s baby and they are probably going to end up getting together and the thought of another woman having him breaks my heart and it’s really sad because the friendship that I have lost are too damaged to be repaired and because of this I have no one to speak to I have noone to tell the story I have to keep it all to myself and I don’t know what to do so that’s why I am asking for all the advice I could ever get. How do I move on? How do I know if I am depressed? I know for a fact my relationship has been toxic for a long time and I know that it is for the best that we are not together so why am I still hurting? Why am I so caught up on a guy that is probably not thinking of me at all? I know he is trying to sweet talk me by sending me all these messages to try and show me that he cares but I know for a fact that he don’t care though as he would have done this to me so why am I still hurting?.. sorry for the long message. Thank you, anonymous