Why?????

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So my mom told me I'm supposed to sweep the floor, do the dishes, do the laundry, take care of all 3 cats, and take care of my brother (who's 12, almost the same size as me, stronger than me, does nothing but play on his phone all day, has no disabilities). I have to do all this before she comes home from work, which is never the same; she could come home 2 hours late or 1 hour early. Meanwhile, I'm over here liable to have a panic attack at any moment, my hands shake and I have no clue why, and I have little strength in my arms. Even when I was working 5+ days a week (I'm not bc my boss is a jerk and only gives a deal when I come in to work a shift bc his stupid ass scheduled someone else too many hours) she told me to do all this. No one's helping me, they don't care. They just see me as a nanny and a maid. And 3rd bank account, because when I'm able to give my mom $300+ a week is when she MIGHT give a crap about me. And my dad just does whatever he tells her, never tells her no, never tells her she's wrong. Her logic on parenting is she can say and do what she wants, she's not trying to set a good example for me, not trying to show me how to be a good woman. I'm basically following how my grandmother acted and what I know is right. I mean, she can have days where shes not like this, but thats usually only when she's getting my money. And my dad just lets her do this. She was also one of the main reasons why I wanted to kill myaelf a few years ago, which that was a result of this. She'd just slap me in the face every time I said that. The other reason was the bullying (verbal but it was worse than any verbal bullying anyone had known of) I went through in high school, which was brutal enough to make a grown man this way. She did do everything she could about that. But she got like this when I graduated and has only gotten worse.