woman to woman rant....

I do believe I've hit my breaking point. my boyfriend and I have a 3 month old daughter, whom I am a stay at home mom to. he works 25ish hours a week. I hit my limit this evening after he sat and played his Xbox (like ALWAYS.) while I held a screaming baby and attempted to cook dinner at the same time.. then, we sat down to eat, and she was hungry. so I set my plate aside and fed her a bottle. when my bf was done eating, he left everything on the table & went back to playing Xbox. didn't offer to feed her while I ate, didn't ask if he could help in any way, didn't even put his plate in the sink. this Xbox is a huge problem. he will get home around 3:00 pm, and play until 3am. NOT EXAGERATING. neither me or the baby get any of his attention or time. I love my daughter to death, but I seriously never get a break. I even take her with me to shower, because if I leave her with him, he will yell for me to get out if she gets even the slightest bit fussy.. I can't leave her alone with him to go to the store because he says "I don't know what to do..so I'll just let her scream till you're back." it blows my mind. I have shown him what to do, shown him how to make bottles, everything. it goes in one ear and out the other. He doesn't care enough to want to help, I guess. Tonight at dinner really hurt my feelings more than anything. I threw my food away, and took my baby to the bedroom, and he's still playing that damn game. At night, I wake up with her all night, and if I don't get her before she starts crying, my bf gets pissed because she wakes him up. He hasn't changed not a single diaper, has given her one or two bottles, and has never been alone with her. He expects all the house chores to be done by 3:00 when he gets home (and has gotten very mean about dishes in the sink), doesn't help with the baby, and expects sex every night. A huge issue to us right now is him saying to me "you don't ever wanna have sex". Yet, he refuses to wear condoms even though I don't want to get pregnant again (and yes, I just started birth control, so he should use extra protection for a while).

I honestly don't know if I'm in love with him anymore... him coming home doesn't make me excited anymore, and honestly im starting to resent him. I haven't liked him as a person in a long time, but now that I know my daughter will grow up around his ways, I don't like him even more.

I know i should leave, but I don't have a job, family nearby, or any money. I'm not on his bank account, and have no idea what he does with any money.

I know I'm just rambling, but I need words of encouragement or a listening ear. I'm exhausted. I need help.