Preparing myself for another loss...

I was so excited, after two mc this year (march, sept), I finally had my Christmas miracle. The Week before Christmas I finally saw a bfp. I cried with tears of joy, the journey has been long and difficult (almost 3 years, two

IVF

- one failed, one chemical, 7-8 iuis that had two mc). Now I'm crying tears of worry. My First HCG was 78 (not bad for 3wks, 6 days). the next 156 (great it doubled in 48 hrs). Then I couldn't get back until Thurs and it was only 461. I've been on the couch crying on/off. Trying To still have faith. I

called my RE office back to see if I could go back in. But, its a holiday weekend so I can't go back until Tues, Jan 2nd. I canceled work today and all my plans for the weekend. Has Anyone else had a slow HCG rise and still had a healthy pregnancy? Sorry For long post but I guess I just need to vent. Idk How I'm going to make it to Tuesday. TIA

**Update** Scan Shows only small sac looking around 4weeks but I'm 5wks/5 days. Re says we need to wait for bw results bc I could've implanted late. BW usually comes in around 3:30pm... more waiting, more emotions, more crying, more praying!

**Update** another mc. HCG only 515. I seriously don't have any strength left. By The grace of God, go I...