I walked away, I disappoint myself

I found a church, one that looks and sounds more personal and is only 5 minutes away from me, in my previous post I explain how I attended church for a short while 2 years ago and haven't been since I had not a great experience. but I think I have finally found my church. my partner drove me, we parked outside, and I froze .. I couldn't get out the car ! watching all the people walk in , there were at least 100 .. and I just couldn't do it 😔 I feel so disappointed in myself, I hate how I get so anxious, I couldn't see past the church doors and not seeing what was beyond the doors made me so nervous. I literally froze and couldn't build up the courage to walk in. will I ever get past this 😔