Sexy struggles

So the last couple months my husband and I have really struggled with being intimate. Both of us. He can get it up but loses it before he can finish. I can get turned on and so close but also can’t finish.

Today we tried and the same unfinished ending happened and after he went to the living room I just kinda cried because I’m so frustrated.

Sometimes I just wanna tell him to go look up some porn and get done with it. He had been unfaithful in the past, messaging someone inappropriately, and I’d rather it be from some random person in porn than someone real. Because we all know porn isn’t real.

He really has been fantastic this whole pregnancy and I know he won’t make a mistake like he did in the past. I also don’t want him hanging and unfulfilled. I know he loves me. That is no doubt. But I’m also afraid once I give my permission it’ll just become his go to instead of me after the baby comes. Idk if I’m looking for advice, reassurance or what. I just feel not enough for him and just want to make sure he gets what he needs in this weird time in our marriage. 🤷🏽‍♀️

Update: he always says “ I don’t know”