When I think I'm not good enough...

My SO And I are on our way to out out of town trip and porn was brought up and jacking off and my husband knows I don't like him jacking off to porn even if he does once in awhile cause I feel like I'm not attractive and I think he's attracted to them more and I think he's bored of me and I get all these negative thoughts in my head and just we got in a BIG BIG fight in the car and just tells just get my jacket in the back seat I'm like what you need your ciggs or what he goes yeah I do not can u please get me my jacket in the back seat I get it and hang it up between us in the car and make him dig in his damn jacket and I'm like are you done already! he goes yes I out down the back all I see is this

And I'm like WHAT I hate you right now... he goes yeah this how bored I am of you and how much I think you are not attractive to me

ladies.... My husband not the romantic type but he hide the box and cleaning kit in his sock to hide it from me and he surprised me and I just cried and just cried I couldn't look at him because I know I had the negative thoughts and I know he loves me and attracted to me he did so good!!! We have been married for 5 years and together 10