HELP!!!

So my high school doesn’t go back till the 31st or something and I’m worried I’m not gonna have the motivation to get out of bed everyday don’t get me wrong I miss my friends I miss seeing the ppl I care about everyday but I don’t know if I can do it get up ,go to school , smile and pretend that everything’s okay when really I wanna go sit in. a corner somewhere and scream I can’t concentrate I can’t focus I forget my assessments and dates of when test and stuff are I honestly am so fucking hopeless

Honestly I say to myself maybe 20+ times a day should I drop out I can’t deal with this it’s stresses me out I can’t sleep I can’t eat

J hate it there but it’s the only place I can go

Help I don’t think I’m going to be able to succeed in the coming year

😢😟🙁😕😔