TTC Frustration

I’m now 11 days past AF’s arrival with no signs of her showing her ugly face anytime soon.

I was supposed to start on the 27th but didn’t. On the 29th, I had the brown blood and assumed I’d start. I didn’t. Everything stopped and there hasn’t been any blood since.

But, every test is negative. Clearly negative. Like BFN right in our faces.

My SO is keeping it together for me as my frustration and sadness have taken over.

My periods are pretty regular and I’ve never experienced the brown blood with nothing after it. We didn’t have sex that day of the night before either, so I know it wasn’t from sex.

I never wanted to track or TTC because I know my Type A personality can’t handle this. We BD almost every day. He finishes in me on my peak days. I diet, exercise and take prenatals.

Why can’t we just have a little bundle of joy?

We’ve only been trying for 3 months, so no doctors yet until we hit one year. It’s just so frustrating and I’m ready to call it quits, get drunk and have sex, since I feel like that’s how most people get pregnant “by accident.”

Thank God for my amazing SO who can handle my mood swings, desperation, frustration and crazy high sex drive. Luckily, we connect and love each other so much that the sex hasn’t become a baby making job so that part is great. It’s the testing, tracking and planning that have been overwhelming.

Okay, rant over. Baby dust to all 💫✨🌟