Can’t believe my baby is gone 😞

I had a miscarriage on October 21,

I still can’t believe I’m not pregnant right this moment, I still can’t believe that my baby would’ve been in my womb right this moment, I still can’t believe my baby is gone. At the beginning of my miscarriage it honestly wasn’t as difficult as it as it is today, I was still in shock a few weeks after my miscarriage even a month after my miscarriage and now in January I am feeling it more than ever. Forget about December I was just so sad 😫

I am actually trying to get pregnant again and nothing, I’m scared. Any other moms took them a long time to get pregnant after miscarriage?