NO JUDGEMENT PLEASE!!

I’ve been feeling really guilty lately about my past. For a few years I went through a “slutty” phase. I drank a lot ( almost everyday), I smoked even more (marijuana), and just didn’t give a eff about anything. I was very carefree, I had a lot of casual sex and wast always the safest because most of the time I was intoxicated and just didn’t care. In the middle of it all I was in a very bad relationship for a little over a year, he was abusive both physically and even more mentally. If i wasn’t insecure before I definitely was after this relationship. It really tore me down even further than I was before and I went through the phase all over again. I look back a realize I didn’t have my self respect, and I was just looking for attention and validation in places I shouldn’t have been. I’m very thankful that I’ve never became pregnant or caught anything other than being diagnosed with high risk HPV almost 5 years ago when I first got together with my now husband. I feel so ashamed all the time over my past and what it could possibly do to my future I wish I would have been more careful and thought things through more back then. I’m now 26 years old, married to a wonderful man who has taken me out of the dark and shown me what it really means to be loved. We have a beautiful son together and are now expecting our first daughter! I love my family so much I just feel like they deserve so much better than me all because of my past. I have so much regret and shame idk how to put it past me! Has anyone been through this?