Excited/scared

So ill be due in a week! Im kind of nervous and scared , but most of all excited! This will be my third baby . The reason I’m scared is because I don’t know what to expect while being in labor and pushing her out ! I’m excited because i like the feeling of early contractions idk why and just the excitement of driving to the hospital and putting the gown on and everything knowing I’m going to meet my lil girl lol . I’m also scared because lately i have been overthinking the fact of “what ifs” ; what if i die while being in labor , what if it’s my baby, what if the father of my child has to choose between me and her to live . Im really scared . 😔 idk why i never felt this way .