children...

all these ladies on here getting pregnant and I'm starting to wonder if maybe I want a child too. I would love the experience of pregnancy, watching the babies grow via ultrasound and painting the baby room and decorating with pink or blue cute things.... I get a twing of jealousy sometimes when I see others babies. They're so cute and precious!! but I've never wanted kids before. I'm emotionally and physically weak, and neither my bf or I have much patience. It would be so hard for us to raise a kid... but I keep finding myself getting jealous of all these ladies. It's so weird. I never even thought I would consider having a child. I always thought they were little demons from hell, but I know that that's only part of it. fuck I'm so confused.