story of my life😔

i was with my ex for about a year. last year in may i happened to get pregnant. at the same time i found he was cheating on me. so we spilt. kicked him out of my house in end of june. i was deeply in love i couldnt let him go. i had a miscarriage mid july. the hardest moments of my life. its broke my in many pieces. i didnt know to live after all. what hurt the most that he wasnt there to comfort me when i need him the most. apparently he said he still loved me and etc. he ignored me for a while til he finally had forgotten the fact we lost our baby ( his first baby ). well i met a guy iwe talk n spent time, i of course was still deeply in love with my ex. i have my ex on fb he sees im with a guy. idk if he was jealous but he instantly face time tellin me i can do better. if i did it to get him jealous cuz it was working. well things didnt work between the guy n i. which it was fine. i was still seeing my ex i couldnt let him go. my ex and i still had sex n he tries to impregnant me again. yes i wanted our family but then again no cuz we werent together he'd come see me every chance he could. i met another guy. we been talking. now were dating. my ex asked i. i had sex with soneone else i said yes he said since when? you and i just had sex few days ago. i said just the other day . he like we fucked raw n u fucked him raw. he asked what i was gonna do i said idk i cant keep doing it.i dont want this anymore. i want to be happy. . ao we ended everything there. im scared n worried my ex n i had sex few days til my ovulation day. and my bf now n i had sex on ovulation day idk what i was thinking.