I feel like I’m having a quarter life crisis

I just need to vent a little, because I feel torn and I don’t feel like I have it together. I’m a new mom about to be a mom again. My daughter is 7 months and when the next one comes, she will be a year. I also teach high school.

I always enjoyed teaching and would always give it my all. However, this year feels different. I often find myself not wanting to be at work and I’m not enjoying it the way I used to. Almost every day I find myself thinking, “I could be home reading my daughter a book right now.” I frequently wonder about her and what she’s doing at any given moment.

I want to stay home and be with her and the little one coming, but facts are it takes two incomes for my family to stay afloat and pay the bills. I find myself daydreaming about the other things I could potentially be doing that could give me more time with my daughter. Tutor? Create my own business? How can I work from home?

I told my husband and MIL yesterday the second my student loans are paid off, I want to quit my job. Every morning I give my daughter her bottle and we snuggle for a little and it literally hurts to leave her in the morning.

Are there any other mothers out there that feel or have felt the same way I do?