Boyfriend problems

I need to vent when I was younger I never really had a boyfriend til I was 16 and I was so insecure because he was a friendly guy so we broke up since then I jus either always got rejected or was told I’m more of the homie type and in middle schoo I had crushes but I was ugly to them or to shy. Well I was upset I cried here and there but I moved on plenty fish in sea right plus I had a lot of friends to keep my mind of it well as I got older like now it hits me harder I lost two of my best friends my ex of 6 yrs on and off played me and I grew more into depression I also have anxiety. Anyways I laid off guys and sex for a yr then met a guy who I’m wit now when we first met I tried to ignore him but once I looked into his eyes he smiled I was hooked he had a girl but was cheatin on her wit me n others but left her and now wit me now couple months back he was sending pics textin other girls sayin shit like I love u wanna b wit u etc I gave him plenty chances to go on he says it’s jus outta boredom he neva fucked em well he still text but not sexting or haven’t had sex wit em and like it still bothers me but I really love him because he actually took me for me n not jus money and stuff idk I’m so confused n been cryin a lot plus pregnant think it’s jus everything from 2015 to now and I can’t get closure to things it bugs me a lot