I need a flipping break!

I had two beautiful, amazing babies 3

months ago but now I just need a flipping break. My husband works 12 hours a day M-F and I’m home alone with them. I work 3 hours a day M-F watching two additional children. I have no time to cook, clean, or take care of myself. By the time my husband gets home I’m exhausted and all I want to do is eat and go to bed. My laundry is sky high, we are out of clean bowls and silverware, I haven’t showered in 3 days, and I’m not even sure where my bedroom floor is anymore. I’m so flipping tired. All I want is a nap and a break. My husband helps when he is home and on weekends but he’s not a woman and he’s not a mother. He doesn’t understand what I need him to be able to do in order for me to take a break and not feel like I need to step in. He’ll watch TV while watching them and doesn’t realize if you don’t get a pacifier in their mouths the minute they start to fuss, they will get themselves too worked up to go back to sleep then you’ll have to be up with them. It’s like he can’t hear them. I have to ask him to do it. He gets to distracted by the tv or his phone to react right away. He doesn’t change diapers unless I remind him they need to be changed. He simply doesn’t think of any of it. It’s like he assumes their always good. Then when they do scream he doesn’t know how to fix it. He really really tries but he just doesn’t understand what it is they need. He hasn’t figured out the difference between crying because their hungry, crying because their tired, crying because they need to be changed, and crying because they want attention. So every single time I have to step in and walk him through what needs to be done. He does it without complaining. He just doesn’t realize that it isn’t a break if I’m having to help him figure out the solution and tell him he has to get him right then to fix a problem. So today, after three months of no break, he made the plan to go hang out with the kids godfather and their grandma. He would be gone for two glorious hours. I would be able to clean and decompress. Finally have a little breathing room. This morning they texted to let us know he is sick so the kids can’t come but he still really wants to see my husband. So here I am. Alone. At home. With the kids. He offered to stay home but he hasn’t seen his friend since Christmas so I just couldn’t ask that of him. I feel like I’m going to lose my mind!!!! How do y’all cope? I cannot begin to express my respect for single mothers right now!