depressed

Does being small really matter? I mean does it really effect how I live?

The right answer is no.

But right now, it’s yes.

Being flat effects self image,

But if I was “too big” I would get called just as much names!

Apparently if I don’t have a skinny waist and a fat ass with bug boobs, I’m not welcome.

Why though? The boys that say these things are ignorant, right?

But when you keep throwing that knife, eventually you’ll hit the bulls eye.

Miraculously, it’s the same with people! What a coincidence.

You throw these smart ass replies at me along with the judge mental comments that you use to make fun of me, well, I used to be able to throw them right back at you and I didn’t let them effect me.

Well like I said, your eventually going to hit where it hurts.

Were it makes you want to break down and cry

And scream about how imperfect you are.

It makes you want to kill you self over these obnoxious comments that you can’t seem to handle anymore about yourself.

It’s funny actually, cause now that you look at it from afar...

Wow. They are true.

Looking in the mirror,

Wow. I have gained weight.

Wow. She does look better than me.

Wow! I AM to skinny.

I’m not perfect for society, am I?

Kill me now.