I can't cope anymore

I've posted before about my husband and his drinking problem. He promised me he'd stop and he hasn't. Things are getting worse and I don't know how much longer I can take this.

We have a 15 month boy , who is my absolute world and I'm a stay at home Mum. My husband works in administration for the military.he basically drinks everyday, about 4 cans of beer. I can't recall the last time he didn't drink. He's been this way for the last 6 years but was sober when we first dated so I know he can do it. He gets really verbal with me basically blaming me not working as the reason he drinks. And now he has started to get aggressive. There have been two incidents since October where he has repeatedly punched and heat butted the walls and doors whilst my son was in my arms. Getting in my face calling me all sorts.

I have given him 2 months in which to sort himself out or me and my son are leaving. The problem I have is he turns it back on me. In the past I took our son and stayed at my mums for the night and he told me that was the worst thing to do that I'm a horrible person and using our son as a weapon. I made him sleep on the sofa recently and he barely spoke to me the next day.

He always manages to make me feel guilty and like I'm the one in the wrong. I know I need to do what's best for my son and I'm not sure if that's my husband anymore. But I can't find the courage to leave him. I love him so much but my son deserves a better father.

I just need someone to rant to. I have no girlfriends and don't want to burden my family