STILL STRUGGLING

Almost a year ago I left my ex of 5 years. I also have a daughter with him. Our “relationship” consisted of him on a daily beating me. Punching me, kicking, dragging me across the carpet, etc. not to mention the emotional abuse I got as well. He was always with another women leaving myself and the baby at home when I wasn’t working my butt off. I obviously know I was wrong for staying and dealing with it now, but felt compelled to and felt like I needed to, for the sake of my daughter. One day I just woke up and said I’m done, packed everything I owned (with a ton of last minute help from friends and family) and moved into a little safe cabin on a family members property. Just like our of a movie, I moved, started a new life for me and my daughter, and I also met a new man. Absolutely amazing in every way and I’m head over heels for him. A complete 180 from what I had before. I now live with him. We have three kids between the two of us and I love each every one of them dearly. But lately things have been rocky. I feel lost. And scared. And also coming to the realization of the damage my ex actually stuck me with. For about the past month I’ve had feelings about what I went through. That I’m messed up. My mind isn’t right. It’s starting to consume my mind and greatly affecting my everyday life. For the sake of my all around health and my current relationship I need some sort of guidance, path to closure. I still see my ex twice a week for drop offs and pick ups for my daughter, and that alone is enough to turn the tears off. I don’t miss him. I know who he is and what he does isn’t okay. But i need to know these feelings will end. Share stories, give advice, I need reassurance that I’m not alone and that this DOES get easier!