No one cares about me.

Lately I’ve been finding myself to be more lonely and sad. I do have a boyfriend of 3 years, but I still manage to feel lonely. Everybody has friends, something to do in a Saturday night or a couple of friends to talk to. It seems that no matter what I say, nobody cares - except for my boyfriend.

No matter how much I try to make friends they never seem to stay. My best friend has his own friends and completely ditched me. People say they care, but no one ever seems to care enough.

I have thought about killing myself numerous amount of times. I don’t know what to do in order to end the pain.

Seeing my friends’ snapchats hurts me more. They always say they would take me out, but they never do. I feel so betrayed, unloved and unworthy. The fun posts they have together on Instagram, boomerangs and stories - I want to be a part of it.

No one cares. I send them a story about how I feel and no one responds.

I’m never sad around them, or express my feelings. It’s because they think I’m being dramatic. Funny because when they need something or someone to talk to, I’m always there for them.

Over the past year I’ve fallen into depression and losing my best friend to other people, being unemployed and other shit didn’t help me. I lost myself, my passion, lost interest in sex, love for makeup/beauty and everything else. I honestly don’t even know anymore.

Sorry guys, just needed to let this out.