Persoal Venting

Hello Ladies! I hardly post anything but I love reading everyone stories and I see you women trust one another. Right now that’s just what I need people I feel I can connect to and trust. My name is Asia Myles , I’m 19 years old and recently had a miscarriage. My boyfriend and I haven’t been dating long but we have been friends since Middle School. We want to try again terribly... but we are afraid. Well I am. I’m afraid of going through the same things I just went through . Now only being 19, I feel I am more mature then most teenagers my age. I want to marry this man and have a family . But with his past relationship he got into legal trouble. My boyfriend was arrested Today and this is the day we can finally take our test. I’m scared to take the test without him being here because if I am pregnant and he’s in jail me being the person I am I know I will worry myself sick off of what if’s. I suffer from terrible Depression and Anxiety as well as having a past of cutting and suicide attempts. I’m scared please help !!