Due date tomorrow

My due date is tomorrow 1/31/18 and I don’t even know how to feel. I lost my son on 8/27/17 at 17 weeks. I had an undiagnosed bacterial infection. I am trying not to break down but I am at home alone with my 5 year old and my husband is at work. Think I’m going to take me a hot bubble bath and cry some. I took off the next couple days from work so I plan to do something for myself each day. I am looking forward with ttc my next cycle but I miss my son so much and I will never forget him! ❤️