so, I can't post anywhere because I don't want my brother and sister in law to feel bad about getting pregnant because it is super exciting, but I just feel so defeated... again. so, a little back story: my husband has a balanced translocation (which is where two chromosomes swap genetic material) and it can cause low motility rates, low sperm count and a 20-50% miscarriage rate if we get pregnant at all.

we had been trying to get pregnant for 2 years and my brother tried for 2 months. well, they won that contest. technically I would have had the first if I didn't miscarry, but I have my beautiful rainbow baby out of the deal, so fine.

our girls are 2.5 months apart. now, today, my brother calls me and tells me "we're expecting again".

don't get me wrong, I'm super excited, but again, we've been trying since May for baby #2. UUUUUGGGGGHHHHH! I'm happy, really I am, but I'm so frustrated with all the effort and energy and making sex no fun because it isn't spontaneous anymore. I am just so annoyed and need some positivity. anyone else in the same or similar boat? please don't bring me down, I'm already way down as it is. thanks for listening.