Fear of Pregnancy

Hey, I’m 17 and I have OCD, general anxiety and social anxiety, along with maybe some other undiagnosed bullshit. Ever since I was young I’ve had this extreme fear of pregnancy and childbirth. I get really uncomfortable when I see pregnant women and I get severe anxiety when I read or hear anything about giving birth. It’s really weird, like if I’m watching it in a show on my own I’m ok with it? But around other people I have anxiety attacks.

I get SO BOTHERED when I say I will never ever have kids and people say I’ll “change my mind”. Like no, that’s making it sound like I HAVE to. Is it ok to never want kids for this reason? Can anyone relate? The thought of being pregnant is absolutely repulsive to me.