I’m 34, bf is 28. I have two boys, 9 & 6, with my ex husband, both of whom were conceived with absolutely zero issues. I didn’t even know what bb temping or ovulation strips or preseed was back then! I literally was like, okay period’s late, let me take a test... oh yay, positive, la dee dah.

My bf and I have been ttc since September. Each time I thought it was our month, only to be disappointed every time. But THIS time was going to be different because I started temping and we used preseed for the first time each time we bd during my fertile window. I was so positive it was going to work. Guess what? It didn’t. Yet another bfn. We’re putting ttc off now until after our cruise in April, but I’m almost positive my bf has low count or low motility, or both. There have been a few different things that have made me think this was the issue, but I feel like now it’s a real possibility. I went to my gyno about a month ago to be checked out just to make sure I didn’t have anything going on, all my tests came back with flying color results. Ugh. I’m just so depressed. I want to cry but I feel like I don’t even have enough energy anymore to physically do it. My body feels empty.