Ex best friend has a baby bump?!

So Monday night I'm getting ready to lay down in bed after having a really good day and I get a text message from a friend

"L is pregnant!?" with a screen shot of her announcement photos.

Needless to say, I break down crying....

Here I am, already missing my son 24/7, having a wonderful day after an amazing weekend and it's all ruined from a single message.

L and I used to be REALLY good friends, and she was with me during the day when I had to go to the ER and had my miscarriage..And now she's pregnant...

not gonna lie, I was really angry at first! "She only has one ovary and is pregnant and we can't even get pregnant after months of trying" I told my boyfriend and I was envious because she will be able to have that experience that I was robbed of.

I love her and miss her and sometimes wish we could still be friends even though I know it's not gonna happen. I am happy for her and her boyfriend, really I am.

it's just hard not to have mixed emotions about it when on the 3rd it'll be a year since we lost our son