embarrassed. married, but second unplanned pregnancy.

I'm just looking for some pick me ups 😞 I never wanted to take things that change hormones because I just find it too unnatural. Getting the copper IUD scared me. I accidentally got pregnant when being really foolish when I was 20( about 2 years ago). We kept the baby and so glad we did. We love him. We had 1 mess up since having my son almost a year ago and I took a plan b the next morning. I am pregnant again. Its been about 2 weeks since I found out and I feel like every few hours since then I've had an anxiety attack or a crying fit. I feel like being pregnant the first time was easier because I wasn't as scared of how long the all day nausea lasted (it lasted like 20 weeks), I wasn't as worried about labor delivery and recovery because I didn't know how bad it could be (I had a lot of complications during and after). I also know how hard it is to have a young baby. I'm so scared and so sad. I can't stop crying about having 2 babies under 2 and giving birth. I dont know what to do because my husband wants to keep the baby and I respect him and I would also be worried about termination because I'm religious and I was glad I kept my son, but I feel like I hate this baby. I just need help from someone because I feel like im trapped and going crazy 😟 (I guess I should specify I am not going to abort but I'm so sad about doing this again..)