something is wrong with me

I have a history of mental health issues and since the beginning this pregnancy I’ve been handling my anxiety really well. But now that I have about 4 weeks until my due date I just cannot calm down or relax. And the thought of being pregnant anymore just makes my heart hurt and I just want to cry.

I feel like no one understands how I feel, because even I don’t really understand how I feel. I’m just so unhappy right now and I’m worried these bad feelings about myself will progress if I stay pregnant much longer.

I just want to meet my new baby, and feel good again so I can keep being a good mum to my toddler too.

Update: I’ve got an appointment in a few days time and won’t be leaving until they listen (for once) and hopefully I’ll get some serious help that gets me through this all. My last birth was 100% natural and I don’t want to interfere if I don’t have to