Remaining Tube is Blocked

Clever Fox

I had an HSG recently and the nurse called and told me my remaining tube is blocked, gave me the number to the fertility specially next door and said I'd be using him as a doctor from now on for any pregnancies and basically hung up. She just passed me along like a fucking piece of trash or hand me down. They didn't even diagnose my ectopic...i did. The numbers weren't doubling like they should've been (they said it was fine), my side kept having this little ache I kept telling them I think it's ectopic (they just told me oh that's normal). Id known since i found out. I got the shot of methotrexate too late at 7 weeks when my levels were over 15k. I ended up having to have emergency surgey 1 month later, the doctor said "the outside of the remaining tube looks good but might want to get it checked out" HELLO! My surgery was laproscopic!! He could've taken a couple minutes to check, but instead, insisted I come back and spend more money! Asshole. The doctor never called to tell me the next step so i just called and made the appt for the HSG but no one told me they didn't do them there so i went up to my doctors and wasted an entire day off before sending me home with another fucking appt. So, I had my hsg. Results sent to obgyn and they never call. I have to call up there and make them tell me the next step. That's when i got that callous phone call. I'm heartbroken and I feel hopeless, ashamed, angry, and very very sad. I'm only 29 and I can never have children naturally again. I have one son from a previous marriage, whom i love and want desperately to make a big brother, and a fiancè whom i want to have children with. He has none of his own. Why is this happening? Sorry for the rant and long novel. I spent most of yesterday crying.