Anxiety

I’m 20 weeks I am really tired of this anxiety and depression never ever had it with my two older kids. I know every pregnancy is different from others but this one it’s killing me 🤦🏻‍♀️I don’t want to sound rude I love my unborn child with all my life but I just want this to be done I feel like crying most of the time which I know a lot of yous lady’s have this symptoms too but the only thing that keeps me calm is taking a shower and crying while I’m in there I hate my hormones at this point I feel like I rarely give my two older kids time and I don’t want them to feel left out. Can yous tell me you’re stories what helps you with anxiety 😞