Disconnected..

I don’t know what is going on and it is driving me crazy...I love my husband so much, but I don’t want ANYTHING to do with sex. After our son was born I told him to just bare with me and give me a little time because I am breastfeeding our little man and I knew with my first that it definitely messed with my hormones and ability to get and stay wet..til around 3 months or so. 3 months has come and gone and now 6 months is about to pass us by too and I’m still just not into it, at all. I mean of course we’ve had sex and a few really good times but I feel like 90% of the time i just end up saying yes because it’s been like 2-3 weeks. Like we had sex tonight but the entire time I just felt totally disconnected, like I was there but not really and he definitely noticed. And I’ve been like on the verge of crying because I’m so upset and I don’t understand what’s going on or why this is happening. I feel absolutely horrible because he is deploying soon and that will be a long 6 months away but the sex is the least of my worries..I’m more upset about how I’m going to adjust to sleeping by myself😂. Has anyone gone through this?! How did you help get things back to normal..or at least a little better..

I’m kind of wondering if i have ppd but have been pushing it under the rug with being busy with two kids, hubby, dog, house, work, Army...because I feel like I’ve been “disconnected” a lot, like just going through the motions.