Today was supposed to be our gender reveal but instead I delivered one of the twins at home and another one at the hospital.

They were too little to survive.

They were boys.

They were so loved and wanted.

I keep asking my self if it’s my fault. I had some pressue but my obgyn told me it was ligament pain and told me to take Tylenol.

The obgyn on call at the hospital thinks it’s because I have an incompetent cervix.

I keep wondering how it is that I saw them on Thursday and they were so well and this happens today.

I pray that god gives my husband and I the strength to accept his will but I’m so broken. I was 19 weeks.

I wish you all the best.