TTC Vent!

My husband and I have been ttc for a couple of years now and only recently have we been more open about it with others and I wish we hadn’t!

We have recently started fertility treatments and I have recently had to take off work for testing so my coworker who I work very closely with knows why I’ve been taking off so much. We’ve recently started working together - about 8 months - and because we work so closely we talk A LOT.

Only recently has she been complaining and hoping she gets her AF this month saying “idk I just haven’t been good at taking my pill lately” which is fine, it’s her life, but she also knows what we are currently going through.

So she keeps saying how badly she wants her period this week and so I half-jokingly say “yeah. Maybe this will help you remember to take your pill if you don’t really want a baby”

She responds “yeah but I’m 27 so if it happens, it happens”

Look, I’m all for more wanted babies in this world and I get her mindset that if she were to get pregnant then she would have it, love it, etc

And I may be paranoid but she has never once mentioned how “forgetful” she is with taking her pill and used to talk before about how “this is why I take my pill every day” (we work with children and whenever a child is throwing a tantrum it’s her go-to phrase). But not that I’m open about seeking treatment you’ve become forgetful. Like are you trying to get pregnant before me?! (We have a mutual friend who knew her before I did who has mentioned that she’s always been very competitive with her sisters and she’s upset that they’ve gotten engaged this year and she hasn’t yet - so is she subconsciencely trying to have babies before them and that’s why she’s suddenly become forgetful?)

But then don’t complain about how badly you need your period! Like I wish for this every day and if you get pregnant, blessings, but please have some respect for what I’m going trough and what I’ve been through! If you really don’t care about getting pregnant and so relaxed about not using protection against it then don’t be hopeful you won’t get pregnant! Especially since she’s insinuated that she just won’t do anything preventative so I really don’t need to hear you praying for your period when I’m praying for that missed period!!!

Sorry for the long post.