Anxiety and trichotillomania

For the last year me and my husband have had our major ups and downs. Well we’re working on our relationship, but it still has its down moments. Well in the last year my anxiety and depression has sky rocketed. I don’t ever get a chance to be out of the house and go get therapy since he works all the time and I’m at home with our three active boys. All 6 and under. Well I got a prescription of Zoloft and that’s somewhat helping me.

I’ve bitten my nails my whole life, picked at my lip and whatnot. Well within the last year or so I’ve developed a major habit and new outlet of my anxiety, and that’s literally pulling my hair out. It started out in little patches and I had small sections, that turned into larger ones, or would become two patches and three so on and so forth. I was always able to hide them with doing my hair. Well I was able to up a month or so ago. I got all the top of my head. It was all super short less then an inch. I had to wear a beanie everywhere I went. I had major anxiety about my hair and would get so upset and mad at myself after I would pull my hair out. Well the last mont I’ve said off and on I’m going to just shave my head. Get it all off so I can’t pull it. My mom always said “no don’t do that you don’t need to, you can hide it with a beanie or hat” that killed me hearing that. I don’t want to hide it, my anxiety the thing that has controlled my mind and my life lately. I hate wearing some fake smile saying everything is perfect never better. Well im done. And 3 days ago I finally shave it. I still haven’t gone out of the house since it’s been the weekend and I haven’t needed to. I have some anxiety about leaving, but I know I eventually will need to. I just wanted to post my story for anyone who is going through the same thing. Not many people suffer from trichotillomania so sometimes it’s isolating... nobody understanding what your going through... my mom would always say “why don’t you just stop?” Wow omg if only I thought of that!! I just want people to know your not alone. Anxiety makes people suffer in many forms. Don’t ever be ashamed to talk about it and get it out. You’re not alone I promise! Here’s some pictures of my hair through out the process.. thank you for reading ❤️

Just remember I’m not 100% confident yet with a bald head...everything is in the open... no hair to hide my face. But I’m doing my best to show people and if they say I look beautiful I’m doing everything in my power to believe them. Because we are all beautiful people!!!!!