want a baby and he dosent

I've just moved in with my boyfriend and I'm desperate for a baby. all of our families have mentioned kids and how we have a big enough space to raise them and always talk about it. I'm so broody just now but he says he wants to wait.

I told him I wanted to come off my implant nexplaton because I was feeling depressed and after being on it for 2 year I seen no improvement.

I get Migranes so I can only take mini pill but it makes me want crazy mood swings so right now we are using pull out method since we don't like condoms

is it bad that I'm tempted to purposely get pregnant? like he came on my stomach and my pubic area (I'm clean shaven) and I was tempted to just put it at my vagina to try and that way I could just say that I maybe just dripped down??