I found out about my surprise babyshower

I know that I'm having a babyshower, my family just didn't want me to know any details on it. So as I was doing something on my boyfriend phone, I came across the date. Now I'm soo sad, because I didn't want to know anything about it. However, at first I wanted to know the date so that I can be really cute, makeup done and etc but that's it. Now that I do know I feel horrible 😢😢