Complicated 😓😴😭🤯🤢🤮

Today was supposed to be a great day, it is my boyfriends nieces 10th bday party 🎉 and i was supposed to be their, these usually happens where I wake up in a good mood 🙂 he wakes up in a bad mood 😒 or vice versatile but when it’s his dad that he is in a bad mood 😒 he gets to rush, be nasty 😷 verbally, physically, mentally, emotionally,... but on my days I’m not allowed I get silenced, dominated, called names, physically abused, and sometimes like today (left home 🏡) not allowed to attend the family event because I dislike being rushed, any female doesn’t like to be rushed (agreed or disagree) but case is he went to the party 🎈 I didn’t, but since he has been gone I have texted, called, and was very nasty 😷.. he left last month a week before valentines dad and are 2yr anniversary, he pretty much gave me ultimatums to (to change)... no Facebook which I have deleted, I was to shut my mouth and not defend myself, and not to say anything to his kids anymore when they come here... that’s is because they disrespect and he 🤔 because they are here for just the weekend they don’t have to clean a dish, whip the tub 🛀 out after their showers 🚿, eat at the table, make theirs beds 🛏, pick up ( sweep and mop) their rooms, ugh 😑!!!!!! I’m physically and emotionally drained.. I’m stuck between “Love and Toxic”

P.s “comments and advice please” private messages or on page post, I need advice... I have this theory these things should be done ✅ by ones self but,! What if that one ☝️ is to blind to know her way out.... And seeks the helps from others is that too Wrong!! 🤔😭🤷🏻‍♀️