I️ fucking hate life rn

I’ve been trying to get better mentally but everything came crashing down today. And I️ thought this app would help me a little bit. But no one has even responded to my first post introducing myself. And I️ keep getting in arguments with my gf and it sucks. And I️ can’t tell anyone anything because I’m not out. I️ don’t think I’ll ever come out. My dad is republican and supports trump so much. I️ keep relapsing and it sucks. Sometimes I️ feel like dying but other times I’m like that’s the selfish way out. And I️ failed suicides are terrifying. Would never want that to happen. I’ve been trying to get weed off of some people but I️ don’t want edibles cuz they taste like shit. And I’m a terrible student. Nothing is going right in my life. I️ have nothing. I’m just pitying myself. Goddamn I️ hate myself cuz of that. Wouldn’t expect anyway to see this anyway.