My ex

We were dating for four months and I broke up with him after we’ve been on and off for two weeks. I just felt he was being SO WEIRD. After we broke up... guess what? He’s holding hands with another chick at school. Hickies on his neck. I was soooo shook lol. He never showed me off, kissed me, or held my hand in public. He never showed me off on social media. But once he started dating her, he did everything I’ve always wanted him to do. I guess I was always an embarrassment to him, I mean. He was so emotionally abusive anyways. I feel like deep down, he’s doing this because he is hurt and afraid of being lonely, but my worst fear is that he never loved me enough to show the love and affection I needed. I’ve lost 10 pounds too... deep down I want him to see what he missed out on but in reality I know I’m doing this for myself because he probably never loved me anyways. It took him one day after our break up for him to hold hands with her and kiss her. Fuck dude, he might have cheated on me with her. I’m so disappointment and mad that I wasted my time on him.