Just need to let it out 😢😔

So here in the UK it's mother's day. Today was supposed to be the day I shared my pregnancy news with my mum, nana & sister, but unfortunately I lost my little pip last sunday/Monday before I even had chance to tell those I love the most. My nana was rushed into hospital last sunday & has been in intensive care all week so I've concentrated on her & put my own issues aside so I've not really had time to think about it. But today it's hit me like a steam train, I'm so lost it's killing me but I don't want to upset my family anymore this week by telling them I should have been announcing my pregnancy & instead mourning for baby I longed for 😢😔 Sorry for the long post but I just needed to vent x