how do you know if you're still in love???

we all know every couples have their fights, arguments, and what not. Me and my husband had one of those days, but the level of disrespect from his part towards me has me in shock! like he crossed the line. Idk if i still love him because I'm still mad and in shock, i know that disrespect its not ok because i didn't disrespect him. In one way I'm thinking I'm done, i have suggested couples therapy he said he would join me but he never did. In the other hand idk if its worth staying... im so confused 😕

*** we been 5 yrs together our had happens in the past, i actually left him and couple months later he begged me tho come back home he promised he will change. that's when i suggested couples therapy and he never went. i was stupid for. coming back before going to therapy. Since then we been having arguments here and there but it's like he gets more and more disrespectful towards me. To the point where i asked him if he still loved me and wants tho be with me, he said if he didn't he wouldn't bust his ass at work for us. I found dating websites in his email but he said he was hacked that he didn't create the profiles. So i wanna believe him, but this argument was for something different. He just woke up in a bad mood but he's here taking out out on our kids and me! i was like we didn't do anything to you! he said he's feeling sick and he's not in the mood, i told him that's no excuse and it all went down from there****