Spotting

5w2d

Have a feeling deep down its a boy.

Argued w/hubby resulting in thoughts of divorce and maybe not keeping the baby.

Took a nap with my 1 yr old daughter.. dreamt that she died. Woke up from that nightmare bleeding.

started off spotting light pink at noon and spoke to on call nurse who basically said cant stop a miscarriage if that is what is happening. But I could go to the ER if it gets worse. What’s the point if they cant help me keep the baby? I graduated to full on red blood soaking up liners by 9p. Now wearing a pad & thinking this is it. Its happening. I am having a miscarriage.