please read and tell me how u feel about your belief

Growing up in god fearing home was hard. The reason why I said god fearing was I was taught to fear hell so bad it caused me to fear god instead of love. I do not what to identify myself. I believe in God. I want to believe in jesus and everything but I do not find peace in Christianity. I pray to God, went to church, read the bible but still no peace, or strong connection. Im afraid if I explore another religion that ill miss the rapture or go to hell. To be honest the little I know about Hinduism makes me want to learn more. I am overwhelmed with because I want to know what is the truth. I don't want the truth 2 be based of opinions. i want to feel it. for 24 yrs i havent felt 100% truth and always doubt my faith. please tell me how u feel about your faith & have u ever felt the way I do? any religion please comment