Have I been sexually assaulted if I don’t feel like a victim?

I know for a fact I was sexually assaulted. After talking to my friends about it and knowing the legal definition I was sexually assaulted by my ex several different times. He would just keep going when I’d say no and tell me I wanted it or slapped me or whatever. Anyway, is it still sexual assault if I don’t feel like a victim? Like what happened to me doesn’t keep me up at night and I don’t think about it a lot or have ptsd or anything. I’m not scared to be touched again. Does it still count as sexual assault if I don’t feel like a victim?