1st vibrator and idk how I feel

Did anyone feel nervous or weird when they got their first vibrator??? So I am 18 years old and I bought my first one last night. I have used a shower head for a while so it’s not my first time touching myself. I don’t ever put anything inside me though, my boyfriend is the only thing that goes in there. Well I tried it out and I don’t know how i feel about it. It felt good (obviously) but for some reason I just feel bad about buying it. I know I shouldn’t feel bad, but I do. Everytime I try something new I get so many emotions and I feel bad right now. A part of me wants to use it again, but also I don’t want to use it again but I spent my money on it. I just feel so many emotions and it kind of scares me