sooooo

something tragic happened with my first two children. no detail, I dont wish to bring up the memories. I want a munchkin so bad. no my children didn't die. they were simply victims of a corrupt system in Texas. I want this baby, I want the c section pain I want the 2 weeks of not being able to stand unless i need to pee. i want my babies, they are safe and taken care of and i get to see them whenever i want but it doesnt change that fact, I want my miracle baby. I want to prove they are wrong, as stated by a caseworker. I need my baby. I've know since i was a child I wanted to work with children and have been told in regards to my nephew and other children I watch that i am the best shed ever been to. I just want my own baby/munchkin/ pain in the ass. I want mine not someone elses.