Something bad....

I guess you could call me crazy. The way the last couple years have been though really freaks me out. Thing’s have been going pretty well in mine and my husbands lives. We are probably buying our first home soon. We both have decent steady jobs now. Insurance on both of us and our vehicles. Just thing’s are going good, but whenever thing’s are going good they always crash down hard with something bad happening. The last couple years it’s been major deaths in our families. My baby sister, then his dad (whom we found passed away), then my grandma, then we put down our cat (our first animal together and pretty much child), and many more after. It was all 1 right after the other. No breaks in between heart ache. I didn’t handle it well and it’s come out in severe anxiety, depression, and anger issues. I am seeking help for this. I am so terrified something’s gonna happen. My grandparents are older, my mom’s health is poor, his mom is older, my health isn’t 💯. I’m so scared. My cat has also been extremely loving towards me lately too, which kind of weirds me out. What if something happens to me!? I’m just so worried.....